many things happened overnight.
& things changes with everything that happened.
i've decide to give things another try.
but i dont know, if i will be truely happy, living with that incident behind my mind.
i am back to the beginning.
where i've lost all trust.
& i get paranoid more than i blink my eyes.
again, i ask myself, whats everlasting?
i am feeling so lost,
so insecure, so fearful.
everything seems to be alright after all the crying and talking just now.
i wil try to be to happy, because you dont like to see me cry.
but i know, deep down, it still hurts more than anything.
the more i dont want to remember, the more it flashes in my head.
now, i am afraid of nights when i have to face everything that i have hidden deep inside me,
all alone.
i dont know how long this would last.
but, this is never the kind of love i want,
never the kind of relationship i would want to be in.
though i know i should let everything be the past.
but, since ytd & till now,
i couldnt hold back my tears the moment tots runs through my mind.
my heart is hurting.
& till now,
im still asking myself,
why must this happen.
why must you hurt me this way.
mayb, its will no longer be perfect.
