♥ Date: Friday, January 29, 2010 @ 11:27 PM

went dhoby ghaut straight after class with zann and guan yu.
shun hiang went home to get her laptop as well as to redo the poster.
we wanted everything to be printed by today.
we have been dragging things for too long alrdy.

had lunch with the 2 girls at burgerking.
tendergrill doesnt have student meal :(
had bk chicken instead.

went all around ps to search for the game counters as well as the dice needed for our game.
got 2 green translucent dice from this shop that sells cosplay stuff.
couldnt find any counters. none from spotlight and diaso.

wanted to meet shun hiang at peace centre.
called the printing shop, they told us out game will only be ready at 5.
stood outside dhoby mrt station, had ice cream with zann.
the worst ever :B
i was quite pissed by the 'efficiency of the printing shop'.
so i asked: whats the name of the shop?
zann told me 'LS Print'
so i went.. SSSlow... (still trying to figure out something for the letter 'L')
before i could even say something else,
zann went 'Lame Shit'.
okay, so now you know what does LS stand for :]

so i went off first.
the 2 girls waited for shun hiang.

called bi,
silly was waiting for me at the arcade at dhoby ghaut mrt station, waiting for me to get my project stuff done.
met him up, accompany him for lunch at kfc.
took a bus back to clementi.
alighted at the nearest bus stop near my house.
but still, theres a walking distance before i could reach home.
& it was raining heavily.

bi suggested that we take a taxi .___.
i found it too silly to hop onto a taxi when my house is so near.
so we ran in the rain ♥
bi took off his shirt for me cause i was wearing a tube dress & he didnt want me to get wet.
but offcourse, he has a singlet on inside :p
& now his shirt is mine ♥
blehs.

had so much fun running in the rain :]
bi held my hand and we ran from block to block.
forgotten how many times my slippers slipped off my feet :p
UNGLAM :B
i wanted to walk for more fun.
but bi dont allow :p

called zann awhile ago,
they told me they waited for the our boardgame till 8pm.
really LS.

anyways,
completed cm lect4 notes.
time to face that dumb e portfolio due on tueday.
& run the last lap for our cfas project.
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catching The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus with bi tmr !
goodnight readers.

i love you bi,
love playing in the rain with you ♥

♥ Date: Thursday, January 28, 2010 @ 11:24 PM

alright ~
a short one.

french today.
20% assessment was FUN ♥

went clementi centre alone to get hair dye for mummy :]
homed at 6.

dinner,
started writting notes for cm.
lecture 4 is super long. swear. :B
im almost done though.
shall complete it tmr.

had a sweet chat with bi just now ♥♥♥
everyday please? :p
bi says he bought something for me, or rather for us.
but he still cant give it to me now.
sooo secretive. i like! :]
he told me wants to bring me over to his and his aunt's place on the 2nd or 3rd day of cny, since i definitely wont be able to make it on the 1st.
im worry if his mummy would mind.
he says he's gonna tell his mummy - im the last and only one he wants to be with.
i melted :p

well well,
he's now a pig and im gonna be next.
~

bye earth.

♥ Date: Wednesday, January 27, 2010 @ 10:46 PM

woke up pretty on time in the morning though i missed bi's morning call :p
but still im late for class.
the girls waited for me at the bus stop.
made them wait, so paisei :[

anyways,
lessons are pretty slack today.
went for cm revision lecture.
no choice. exams hints :]
was complain & complain throughout the lecture.
made the three girls laughed like crazy.
i took guan yu paper, and wrote this:

'她在讲废话。很圆!'

& i kept repeating myself.
很圆很圆很圆很圆很圆很圆很圆很圆...
OKAY :]

felt much lighter after the hints she gave.
topics are narrowed down for us ♥

me and zann went to trim our fringe after class ♥
hahas. two vain woman :p
brought her to the saloon i always go to trim just my fringe :]
was looking for coco, the hairstylist who would normally cut for me.
she wasnt around so the ladyboss did the job.
pretty good as well.
i want colour extensions for cny ♥
blue or purple?
i'll go back there very soon :]

walked home with zann.
说心事 as usual ♥
she's the only girl whom i could pour my heart when things happened.
sat underneath my block,
chatted.

home at 5plus.
had dinner.
& i nap till 9.
how sinful :S

many outstanding assignments.
ganbateh!

goodnight earth.


i want to make a serious promise.
我只爱你一个, 就你一个。-bi

♥ Date: Tuesday, January 26, 2010 @ 10:55 PM

im back.
i hope everything will be fine from now on.
its gonna take 324984985 hours of sleep to regain all the energy lost from 4 days of crying.
well anyways, i've to pull thru this sem first.
exams in 3 weeks time.

school as usual in the morning.
class suppose to strt only at 11am.
zann suggested that we reach school at 930 to work on our integrated proj for bcomm.
i was half an hour late, shun hiang was an hour late.
i strted massaging zann's shoulder, & now she wants me to be her personal massager :p
oh, & i found out, no matter how hard she press my shoulders, it doesnt hurt.
but when i press hers alittle harder, she goes gaga.
ahlala. she's a toufu :]

went for class.
another new assignment given.
eportfolio. hate it.
the presentation is scheduled next week .___.

skipped cm tutorial.
didnt want to see SOMEBODY face.
i praying hard that there will be no more cm tutorial next week on.
cause i've alrdy missed it twice.
cant afford to miss anymore.
& yet i very much refuse to see her face.

the girls went orchard to settle the rest of the stuff for our cfas.
i didnt went along, went clementi central instead.
dont feel like going home.
so i sat a my friend's shop.
from 1plus till my mum came at around 5 :p

home at 6.
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to dear friends who are concern:
i know these few days have been crazy for me.
im doing fine. dont worry.
time is all i need :]

to my bi:
like what you used to tell me,
time will prove everything.
& now, im hoping it will ♥
ILY.

byes ~

♥ Date: Sunday, January 24, 2010 @ 8:39 PM

track running: 羅志祥 - 愛的主場秀


i have 103 of them ♥♥

okay peeps.
i know i have been VERY CRAZY and VERY EMO for the past few days.
now, im back on my feet ♥
cause i know i have to.
& yes, i'll will always be the QingQing im born to be ♥
the confident one who will never be defeated :]


met bi early in the morning,
headed to beach road to get his rank done on his uniform.
had lunch at the foodcourt.
at that moment i thought, nothing else matters as long as we still feel each other's presence.
mayb, im alittle emotional today.
just full of thoughts.

anyways,
took a bus to orchard,
wanted to solve his lappy problem at 313 somerset.
but the sales persons strted psycho-ing us to get their products .____.
went sim lim.
a kind sales managed to solve our problem :]

arcade at bugis junction.

waited for bus home behind junction.
i suggested that we take bus 7, double decker.
got up and found ourselves stuck in this stuffy and hot bus.
couldnt take it, got down and change a bus back to clementi.
both of us fell aslp on the way :p

bi accompanied to the saloon to get my colour done ♥
oh the way there, he strted taking straw hearts from his pocket :]
one after another ♥

well, i wanted him to go home first, bu the insisted on entertaining me :p
silly boy?
oh, this was the first time i step into a saloon with my boyfriend & revealed all the unglam sides of me :B
AHHHHH.
anyways, he made me laugh til the hairstylist got a little fed up with me movign around :p

bi sat there, waited for me for an hour plus.
♥


home at 5.


i know he wasnt happy today.
yet he tried his best to cheer me up when i threw a temper.
many times, how i wished i could bear some of the pain in his heart, some of the troubles in his head.
& if i could and if i know how to, i definitely will.


i very much hope that everything is temporary.
im picking myself up, hoping for another miracle.
will there be one?


bi, thanks for the day.
its time for a smile :D


special thanks to zann,
who chatted with me yesterday night.
thanks girl, i really felt better knowing that there's someone who really understand.

♥ Date: Saturday, January 23, 2010 @ 8:11 PM

'along the way, i've learnt that you can't let anyone in too far and you can't trust endlessly. The biggest mistake you make is to care or love someone more than yourself. beacuse then you are just setting youself up for disappointment. boundaries are necessary so that you can protect yourself, because once you're broken, you'll never be fully fixed.' -eletheowl.

the above describes it all.
im awaken from the dream that once belongs to us.


188 days ago,
when i first decided to let you into my heart,
i did it without knowing the consequences.
i never thought i'll end up losing myself,
feeling all the heartaches over again.
at that very moment,
i thought, you're everything i ever wanted.
i thought, i'll be the happiest girl like you promised.
i thought, i've found somebody to lean on.


i don't want to forget the days you,

appeared outside my house just to cheer me up when i'm upset,
told me you'll be the one giving me the sense of security i needed,
look into my eyes and tell me you'll prove your love for me,
say you'll wait for the day when i trust you totally, even if its takes forever,
hide behind the pillar and surprised me with a hug from the back,
rushed back from camp just to see for a mins,
did silly little things just for me,

if everything's gonna be a history.


i missed the days when it's only us.


this is not me.
you have no idea how much everything impacts my heart.

♥ Date: Friday, January 22, 2010 @ 9:48 PM

from this moment.
i've promised myself to search for the real me once again.
& i really mean the real me.


off to bed @ 947.
i wanna run away from the world.
just one last time.

♥ Date: @ 8:24 PM

many things happened overnight.
& things changes with everything that happened.
i've decide to give things another try.
but i dont know, if i will be truely happy, living with that incident behind my mind.

i am back to the beginning.
where i've lost all trust.
& i get paranoid more than i blink my eyes.
again, i ask myself, whats everlasting?
i am feeling so lost,
so insecure, so fearful.

everything seems to be alright after all the crying and talking just now.
i wil try to be to happy, because you dont like to see me cry.
but i know, deep down, it still hurts more than anything.
the more i dont want to remember, the more it flashes in my head.
now, i am afraid of nights when i have to face everything that i have hidden deep inside me,
all alone.

i dont know how long this would last.
but, this is never the kind of love i want,
never the kind of relationship i would want to be in.

though i know i should let everything be the past.
but, since ytd & till now,
i couldnt hold back my tears the moment tots runs through my mind.

my heart is hurting.
& till now,
im still asking myself,
why must this happen.
why must you hurt me this way.

mayb, its will no longer be perfect.

♥ Date: Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 10:43 PM

SOMEBODY IS A BITCH!
above sentence is 101 percentage credible.
no names will be mention here.
to protect.. myself :]

bcomm early in the morning.
round 2 of impromptu for the 3 girls.
mine is tmr.
was already very nervous seeing them going thru it once again.
what will happen tmr? :S

had lunch at canteen 2.
the wanton mee is inedible.
SE-RIOUS-LY.

theres actually two stories from zann and guan yu.
two different stories. not sure which one is true.
or mayb, none of them is.

1. if you waste food when you are alive, you will turn into a hungry ghost when you die and not have anything to eat. which means, you will suffer from hunger after you are dead.

2. if you waste food when you are alive, you will be busy eating up all the food you waste in you whole life time after you die. which means, you will be stuff-ed with all the food u wasted.

back to the wanton mee.
4 of us will either be busy eating it when we die or suffer from hunger because of the inedible wanton mee ._____.
okay.
its getting very cold i know.

cm presentation scheduled at 245.
but ended up presenting only at 3plus.
OKAY. I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT WHAT HAPPEN.

day spoiled.
mood spoiled.
& i am expecting tmr's impromptu to be SCREWED.

cried on boyfriend's shoulder on our way home on the bus.
my mood sucks now.
bye peeps.


happy 6th month-sary ♥

♥ Date: @ 12:00 AM

SIX ♥

我爱你.



'不管发生什么事，
你还是我的老婆，
还是那么珍贵，
还是我爱的人。'

♥ Date: Monday, January 18, 2010 @ 12:00 PM


honey lemon & chocolate dinosaur ♥





silly lying on my lap .___.

p.s: ming long doesnt want to be captured.

♥ Date: Friday, January 15, 2010 @ 10:35 PM

♥ Date: @ 3:05 AM

its 3am in the morning and im still awake.
thanks, credit management.

.___.

♥ Date: Wednesday, January 13, 2010 @ 11:25 PM

lots of project,
& people are driving me crazy.
or mayb i should drive them crazy first by flooding them with emails, chasing projs.

mani and pedi after proj discussion this afternoon.
relxation? ♥
my bi knows i love it :p
& he's more than willing to accompany me there and entertain me for that hour or so :]

anyways,
now im super tempted to 3D all my nails for cny.
.__.

bi got me twister fries at 8 plus the moment he reached clementi from his camp.
delivered to my place ♥

french class tmr.
20% written assessment.
im not at all prepared.
dead.

i want my bed,
NOW ♥

i love you baby.

♥ Date: Monday, January 11, 2010 @ 11:24 PM

♥ Date: Saturday, January 9, 2010 @ 11:59 PM

♥ Date: Friday, January 8, 2010 @ 10:54 PM

met bi early in the morning.
cab to school as lecture starts at 9,
& im still home at 845.

dropped bi at the main road near mrt station,
reached school at 905 :]

i did something dumb.
went the cab reached SIM, i told the driver to drive into the campus.
so he did. he went straight. then i told him to turn right, up the slope (np-ians should know where i wanted to head to).
i wanted him to drop me somewhere near the lecture hall for my lecture so that i dont have to walk.
guessed what.
after the zebra crossing, he turn left, realised the road was blocked.
my god. i forgot today is open house, THAT ROAD was blocked for some IT fair.
i swear i was so damn paisei.
the driver reverse, turn left and dropped me somewhere near block 72 instead.
end up, i still got to walk .__.
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ended school at 12plus.
lunch with shun haing and zann.
left at 1plus.
bi msg me while i was waiting for the bus to clementi central.
he told me he booking out, playing pool with jason, ask me to join :p

so i met him at clementi central.
walked there ♥
shall let the pictures do the work.

♥ Date: @ 12:20 AM

woke up at 6plus.
met bi early in the morning :]

he left for camp at around 9,
went to prepare myself,
met girl in school for gym at 10.

it has been a long time since we last ran.
couldnt ran for long :p
shower and change up after 30mins onthe trackmil.

lunch at makan place.
went for french class :]

went around the school and visited the booth for our course during break time.
open house begins today till friday.
& o lvl results will be out on monday :p

saw a few of my juniors at the bus stop while heading home.
i clearly know the fear + exciteness + all sorts of feelings they have right now.
i'm not so old after all :p
its just two years ago when i went thru what they are going thru now .__.

met bi at clementi central,
had kfc for dinner,
home at 6plus.

met bi again at 7 after changing up.
went cc for basketball till around 8,
went another court for awhile,
walked around westcoast plaza before he sent me home.

back home at 10.
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bi received a message from his master in camp to inform him that a trainee past away today morning, most probably while he's on duty.
got very worried for bi,
kept telling him that he has to take good care of himself.

'为了你，我答应你我会照顾自己。'

bi, 说到要做到。


you stole my heart, when you whisper into my ears.
today, will always be remembered.

♥ Date: Wednesday, January 6, 2010 @ 11:25 PM

i guessed i havent got used to waking up early for school again early in the morning.
i takes 4-5 snooze before i am able to drag myself out of bed.

met the girls at np bus stop as usual.
i wrote whole loads of rubbish for bcomm business message assessment.
just realised its 15 percent instead of 10.
so dead.

got back all common test papers.
i'm happy with my grades so far.
just hope those dumb projects doesnt pull my gpa down.

printed our IV report for the proj.
its 24 DOLLARS for goodness sake.
1$ per piece for colour printing.
the tutor better give us A for it :B

nothing went in during CM lecture.
wasted my 2hrs.
too tired to do anything.
nap for 2 hours.

woke up,
wrote alittle as usual.
i'm at topic 6 after 3 days.
aiming to complete the module by this week.

bi came over to my place at 8plus.
spent some time tgt,
he went home at 10pm.
& here i'm ♥

gonna hit the gym with zann and shun hiang tmr at 10.
cant wait to feel lighter :p

off for my beauty sleep ♥


i want the time to stop, everytime you hold me in your arms.
i love you, bi.

track running: 杨丞琳 - 雨爱

♥ Date: Tuesday, January 5, 2010 @ 11:28 PM

woke up at 7, earlier than usual.
met shun hiang at 830 to print the notes for today's lecture.
drag through CM,
ended school at 4pm.

gathered the girls,
continue to work on our CFAS proj.
ideas are settled.
i hope the rest turns out fine.

home at 6plus.
took sometime to meet bi after this book out.
went back home at 8.

wrote alittle,
read through the samples given by bcomm tutor.
just finished revising for the business message assessment tmr. 10%.
& some impromptu speaking assessment is coming up next week.
feeling very tired nowadays.
needa rush the notes before things starts to pile up before cny.
i guessed i'll just have to pull it through.

anyways,
received a mail from school saying that my CV was forwarded to dbs for attachment.
& previously, dbs doesnt not require interviews.
have to stand by though :[]

im going off.
goodnight earth.



you are not only the one who's breaking down.

♥ Date: Monday, January 4, 2010 @ 11:16 PM

woke up by bi's morning call.
was totally not in the mood to go school.
thanks to the nice and comfy weather :p

first day of school & im late again.
stood too long infront of the mirror.
was looking frantically for a umbrella at home before i left house.
couldnt find one :B

surprisingly, i was the earliest.
guan yu & shun hiang late.
went lecture with zann :]

time seems to past pretty fast today.
ended at 1 after CFAS tut.

headed home.
for my SLEEP ♥
though no more rain, but the weather was awesome :p
3 hours nap :]

wrote some notes.
chatted with bi on the phone.

he's a pig already.
& now, its gonna be my turn ♥

ciao.



'我不会做些让你不开心, 让你伤心的事。
如果我对你不认真，我就不会这样 - 爱你爱得那么深。'
-bi

♥ Date: Sunday, January 3, 2010 @ 8:50 PM

woke up at 10,
met bi under my block.

had breakfast at kfc,
walk around at popular :]

bi wanted westmall.
i know, he wants timezone :p
so we took a straight bus.
dj max on the way ♥

went time zone,
played initial D and this jurassic park shooting game tgt :p
candyland alittle as usual :]
shopped around,
at mango milk ice at the nearby coffee shop ♥

went back to west coast cc,
i sat there djmax-ing, while he play basketball with a bunch of guys.
just little 15year old kids :p
i'm feeling so old .__.

left for home when it starting drizzling at 4plus.

school resume tmr.
school blues for sure.

goodnights.


with you around, i know im protected.

♥ Date: Saturday, January 2, 2010 @ 10:31 PM

quarrel with bi again :S
tgt with my crazy mood swings.
i told him ytd night that i didnt want to see him today.

saw his msg telling me he's awake when i woke up.
so i got up, got changed.
left house,
a packet chocolate milk on my gate ♥

walk to the lift,
he was sitting at the stairs waiting for me.
he gave me a tube of hello kitty soft candies.
♥

took a striaght bus to plazasing.
breakfast at mac,
caught sherlock holmes :]

the movie was okay.
guess there's gonna be sherlock holmes 2.

shopped around at 313somerset.
went over to cine for lunch at this korea+jap eating house.
hmm, i forgot the name :p

arcade awhile at timezone.

was having serious cramp the whole day since morning.
my back ached like mad.
bi had to message for me even when we were in the movie threatre.
he's thoughtful enough to order drinks without ice for me throughout the day ♥


left at 3plus.
both of us felt aslp on the bus.
almost missed the stop :p

sat at the stairs with bi as i didnt want to go home that early.
after awhile, we started arguing for what happening ytd.
i got so angry, took my bag and went off.
before i even reach my doorstep,
i rmbed, his stuff were still in my bag.
so i went back, passed it back to him, and i just stood there.
he held my hands very tightly.

i started tearing.
he sat me down,
talked to me very nicely.
& his dumbdumb (but cute) way of making me laugh.
♥

no one is at fault.
its just part and parcel of two person being tgt.
its something we go thru to get to know each other better,
as long as we solve it tgt.
but well, i admit. it was more of my fault :X

homed at 5.

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i manage to curb the temptation of pps tv & completed the 12 videos and the elearning assigment due on the coming monday after i get home.
one proj down.
3 more to go.

less than 2 months to exams.
its time to start working on my notes.

till tmr!



i've found someone, who holds me tightly & never let me go.
♥

♥ Date: @ 12:21 AM

swimming at clementi complex with bi in afternoon :]
bi headed there first, joined him later.
he swam a few laps before i reached.

he didnt swim anymore after im there :p
accompanied me - sun tanning + water slashing ♥

played with my bottle of tanning oil :p
i'm now alittle bit darker,
could tell from all the bikini tan marks.

& my bi is forever as protective.
'girl, can wear something safer?'
:p blehs.

ps: i'll never forget my bi's expression when i came out from the changing room. hor, bi? :p


went home to place my stuff,
had lunch with bi at the coffee shop near my house.
his favourate salad you tiao + shrimp egg ♥

went cc.
i told him i wanted my mani session :]
he gave me his wallet, told me his password.
but i wanted to spend mine instead ♥

he stayed at cc for basketball, i went for mani.
after i sat down for awhile,
it started raining.

so i msg bi, to see if he's still playing.
as usual : 'no worries. everything is under control.'
then he appeared infront of me.
:p

silly boy came in & sat beside me,
so curious about what the person is doing with my nails :]
bi started asking me cute question like 'why you never draw your nails'.
hahas.
he sat there with me till im done.
well, i've found someone who is willing to accompany me for stuff like that. manicures, saloon etc :p ♥


went west coast plaza,
was looking around.
pretty much decided on which phone to get tgt :p
the rain was too heavy to even leave the mall,
plus i havent fully recover from my cold yet,
so we cab home.

movie with bi tmr.
meeting him early in the morning.
i need my sleep.

bye earth.
bye 1st day of 2010.


on the way to cc today,
we walked past the exercise corner at clementi woods,
a place we once spend our time tgt at.
few months ago,
i wanted bi to show me how many pull ups he could do.
so we stop at the exercise corner, he started doing pull ups.
naughty me, took his slippers, started running around.
he started chasing me ♥
thats where, memories were left in our hearts.


bi's production:
meh meh 吃草
猪猪没脑
girl girl 拿着我的鞋子乱乱跑。

:p

Qing Qing, Jessica
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