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♥ Date: Monday, August 31, 2009 @ 9:57 PM

♥ booyah!
bi woke me up as usual with his call :]
kept telling me i have to prepare for work alrdy :p
well, got prepared and left house at ard 810.
manage to reach office in time :]

minghan has left the company.
minghan UNCLE! :p
he is only 22. a very friendly guy :]
never fails to gossip with us and make us laugh so hard though he was once the only guy in the admin team. hahas.
guess he found himself a better future somewhere else.
all the best to him.

well,
got to know a new guy from sales dept - JASON.
he's a nice guy too.
joined us for lunch today :]
i've got a gut feeling he likes to gossip as much as the girls :p
oh, he's married. hahas.

sitting at my usual desk,
brought my minnie mouse mug to the office.
how about a soft toys tmr? :p

bi wanted to send me home from my work place.
last minute found out that his event at chevron ends at 8.
so i headed home myself :]

had only 5 hours of sleep ytd night.
feeling a little sleepy now.
shall go to bed just alittle earlier today.
have alot of reports to process tmr.
need my beauty sleep!
hello panda dreams ♥

tats what my bi told me ytd night,
he knows i like hello panda :]

till now, im still telling him, im too afraid to expect anything from love.
爱永远有时差。

♥ Date: Sunday, August 30, 2009 @ 11:03 PM

woke up at 9 today :]
it has been raining almost the whole day.
watch 烈火雄心3 with my yongest sister from the morning till the 1plus 2.
hahas. mummy bought the dvds.

wanted to booked an appointment with my manicurist.
i called many times bt there wasnt any answer when they were supposed to be open today.
no choice. needa have my nails done before reporting to work tmr, mummy sponsor :p yea, - vain. hahas. pretty nails just makes me happy :]
so, ended up in another nail parlour.
pretty good service. its just a little more expensive.

headed home.
nap alil while.
and here i am glued to my laptop. hahas.

was chatting with ryan on msn just now.
he's returning to holland for 3months to get his exams done.
guess he will still be celebrating christmas in sing, provided he is coming back :p
i have a gut feeling he will rebel and nt want to come back for his ns. hahas.
well, takecare and update me soon :]

bi's having guard duty right now.
he said this will be his very last duty.
will be posting out some time around the end of september.

well, strting work tomorrow.
pretty excited :p
shall update again.
goodnights.

silly, kindly stop calling and look for mrs tan. blehs :p
hahas. me and my random-ness :]
i miss you.

track running: 容祖儿- 这就是爱吗？

♥ Date: Saturday, August 29, 2009 @ 10:56 PM

woke up by bi's call again in the morning :]
hahas. he tried waking the piggy up.
i snooze and snooze my phone alarm till i realised its 745 & im suppose to meet him under my blk at 8am :p

well, he didnt rush me.
so i showered and change up while msging him.
then he told me superman just flew past my house :]
didnt get him until i found a packet of chocolate milk at my gate when i left my house.
hahas.
went downstairs, he was waiting for me.
then, it was 830 alrdy. he waited for half an hour :p

realised superman didnt give me a straw. hahas.
bt he said he left it with the packet of milk outside house.
zzz. didnt see it :]
hahas. so he went to get a straw at the mama shop near my blk.
walk to clementi central, was dizzling a little.
took a bus to chevron. bi wanted to bring me for pool over there.
bt its only open at 10am. we were too early.

took the shuttle bus to jurong eat mrt station, train-ed to bukitbatok.
had kfc porridge for breakfast at westmall.
shopped around, took a bus to beauty world :]
walked one around, we walked to ngee ann for my committee meeting at 12pm.

sa gua waited for me at the atrium for 3 hours :[
he played his psp till it went flat.
meeting ended at 3.
went back to clementi central, went to the arcade.
then bi brought me to a petshop.
i ran out the moment i saw a dog.
dumbdumb trick me into the shop and tried assuring me that the dog wont bite :B
hahas. the shopkeeper sure had a good laugh.

slowly walked home after that.
sat under my block,
had a hearty chat with bi for an hour plus :]
knew alittle more here and there.
i love chats like that ♥

bi will be booking in for guard duty tmr morning.
hope to see him soon.
well, i know superman will fly past again very soon ♥

oh, i need a pair of new heels for work.
all the pretty heels i have are too high for me to wear it everyday to work :p
idk why, i love buying super high heels cause there are are just too pretty to resist :]

peace.

bi, dont worry alrights?
i have decided its you.
& it will be only you.
no one else.
i promised.

& bi, i dont need a maid cause my boyfriend is a superman :D

tagg replies:

XiaoDevil: hi qq, just dropping by to say hi to you. All the best for your exams, smiles x)
hellos. thanks. my exams are finally over :] takecares.

jiali cousin: hello.
heya. didnt get a chance to meet you up the last time you came back to singapore. hope to see you soon!
loves ♥
goodnights.

♥ Date: Friday, August 28, 2009 @ 11:22 PM

this is the second update for today,
mayb because im too free after exams.
theres really nothing much to do :p

there will be a committee meeting tmr at 12, sort of hand over i guess.
i believe it will last at most for two hours.

dont know why,
im feeling a little peaceful, a little emotional & a little lost.
cant really explain the feeling.
a mixture i guess.
many questions running through my mind.
suddenly, i just want to slow down my footsteps,
to think of all the stuff i want to,
to decide matters undecided
& to sort out my feelings.

i shuld have an early night today.
goodnights.

its all me and my sense of insecurity.

♥ Date: @ 9:20 PM

OMG. exams are over :]
hahas. hard to believe that i survived through the 5 papers.
FRP was okay.
for now, i shall just pray hard for the results.
will be released on the 18 sep.

met bi early in the morning.
he got me my fav chocolate milk :]
send me to school for my paper and he waited for me at the school lib.
completed the paper after an hour plus, went off before the time's up.
went down to town, bought tickets for final destination 4 at the cathay.
walked to ps, had mac for lunch, then we went back to cathay for the movie.

well, the plot was kind of predictable.
its just the excitement tat everyone is looking for.
oh, everyone died at the very end.
hahas.

walked around at cathay after the movie.
went into this shop that does very pretty crystals and skins for phones and electronic gadgets.
really tempted to get my phone done with those pretty and eye-catching crystals :]
expensive though.
i shall see to it :]

took train to vivo city at 2plus.
walked around looking at phones.
oh ya, saw jessica with her boyfriend at action toys.
it should be her. i guess i didnt make a mistake :]
she didnt recognise me though.

flavour burst again :p
the hom-ed.

i just realised, i shopping for a very long time alrdy.
iavent strt working yet and im alrdy eyeing on my pay-to-come. :p
hahas. i want to get alot of stuff for myself :]
feeling really tired now.
shuld be the after effect of slping at 1am ytd night and waking up at 7am in the morning.
evolving into a panda soon :D
i really need SLEEP! ?

will be super free from now on.
work starts on monday.
i miss my bed alrdy.
ciao.

cut the act & stop pretending.
oh, just a random one :]

♥ Date: @ 12:33 AM

self declared holiday begins from this very moment :]
YAYS. hahas.

finally done with everything im supposed to for FRP.
dont wannt care if i remembered everything anymore.
i guess, it will be alright since ihave went thru once and at least able to rmb thefacts at that point of time :]
last paper tmr!
final destination with bi ♥
should be suntec.

well, FP wasnt very good.
i felt it was the toughest paper among the 4papers completed.
didnt feel very good when i was doing the paper. many doubts.
anyways, went je lib straight after FP paper.
so desperate to get over with FRP that i studied on the bus on the way to the lib :p
studied from 12plus till 430.
met bi at je mrt station.
he booked out today.

bi reached first.
so i went there, took out my phone and to give him a call.
end up he hugged me from behind. tot which ti ko :p
went imm for early dinner. or mayb i shuld say late lunch.
MAC.
ufo catcher again :]
didnt get anything though, better luck next time.
went to look at ipod nanos ♥
& bi wants to get himself a new phone.

bought mac flavour burst icecrema before we left.
bi went to disturb the lyoung lady serving us, asking if he could make on of the icecream cone instead :p
disturb her till she went pretty blur :X

took bus home at 5plus.
dumbdumb bully me on the bus :[
he say he gonna zip his mouth and not talk to me.
so i disturb him till he say : 要不要 :B - tat was his first sentences after trying so hard not to talk :p hahas.

anyways, friday is COMING for me.
oh, its friday alrdy. 30mins past 12midnight.
gotta catch my beauty sleep.
goodnights.

boy,
thanks for today.
its always sweet with you around.
thanks for throwing that away with ur own hands.
i really couldnt make myself to do it for you.
i didnt want you to regret after that.
i have never tot u will throw that away. i tot, u still have hopes on it.
i have to say, im happy to know you are trying your best,
& i do have a stand in your heart.
you know i have been struggling to believe all this while.

whatever the outcome might be,
boy, let this moment last.
iloveyou.

♥ Date: Wednesday, August 26, 2009 @ 11:20 PM

well well.
havent been updating for two days.
busy mugging till midnight for the past few days.
3 DOWN, 2 MORE TO GO :]
YAY-ness.

a change of new blog address.
no whys. just feel like it.
or mayb i just want some peace to handle my exams.
do relink me people :]
oh, some people have been trying so hard to track me down this few days.
and you know who you are. stop being so desperate.

today:
woke up by bi's call :]
got change and headed to je library to strt on FP revision, right from the very first chapter.
hahas. cause i havent touch it at all.
mayb because today its a weekday, found myself a table.
so, lalala till 4plus.
decided to head home early as it looks like its gonna rain anytime.
like what my mummy always say, 如果你带雨伞，天回塌下来 :p
plain lazy :]

wanted to look for bi at suntec,
but realised i have alot to do,
so ended up spending the whole day with the stack of FP notes :[
sorry dear.

finished studying awhile ago.
im quite sure that i wil be able to 'k' FRP tmr at quite a fast pace.
im half prepared alrdy :]
im so looking forward to friday.
will be working in PSB from next monday on.

goodnights,
loves ♥

im losing grip.
this time was different.

♥ Date: Sunday, August 23, 2009 @ 11:55 PM

editted:

tagg reply:just a passer-by: oh come on,dun get so hostile over some random passer-by; i am jst giving a comment on sth that has personallly happened to me before,no hard feelings please.
not being hostile :]
if theres no hard feelings. please make yourself known here.
it will be very much appreciated.
& mayb you could share more then :X
-----------------------------

okay.
went to watch the proposal today.
quite a touching movie, hilarious parts here and there :]

well,
have been mugging alot since last week.
really hope hard work would pay off :]
i havent finish my revision for AAA.
luckily it is an afternoon paper tmr.
guess i will be waking up at as early as 7am tmr to strt memorising all the dumb ratios for fininacial analysis.
oh, and i havent have the time to try on at least one of the past year paper :[

this few days, blogging have become my tea break :p
just wanna keep my blog updated when im having a break from all the mugging ♥
i believe, the last 4 papers will be over very soon.
then i will get to see my colleagues again :]
yays.

anyways,
wish me luck for tmr's paper.
i am aiming for a B, at least :]
goodnights peeps!
peace out.

tagg replies:

ps: his bf billy tan yong soon lo
ps: dun use ... la
ps: use billy
yes. you got his name right.
& i clearly know who you are.
please kindly tagg with your name.
thanks a million.

pk: to whoever the person is using ps name for the recent three tags, dun use other people name when u can get people into trouble.. use ur own.. i dun think u dun have a name right?
pk: QQ concentrate on ur studies first... must jia you!!!
girl, thanks for your concern ♥ i will be alrights and mugging still continue in progress :] i want my gpa :p hahas. jiayous to you too! update me when you are free.

just a passer-by: history will never happen again, it just repeats.
hi. if you are just a passer-by, then you wouldnt have said something like that.
history repeats or not, nobody is able to be sure.
unless you tell me you have no doubts about that.
please make yourself known here.
thanks.

PeiPei: Hellos, tagged. boo! goodluck for your PSLE ♥

many people said many things.
but i have decided to trust only myself.
the truth is always that cruel.

& i am on for everything and anything that has to come.
its just fate.

♥ Date: Friday, August 21, 2009 @ 11:58 PM

ONE DOWN :] YAY.

well, FIT was as expected.
i cant say i did very well.
but at least a B? :]

have been mugging accounts since the afternoon.
went to the library to study till around 5.
the two xiao jie super kiasu :p booked the room for the whole day till 8pm in the night.
they usually stay in school till very late though.

headed to clementi control station to meet bi.
he wasnt in a good mood :[
slowly walked home after that.

bi will be having duty tmr.
guess i will be studying alone in the school library tmr.
need to swallow at least half of the FRP notes i have on hand.
meaning, 4 super long chapters.
pray hard that tmr will be a productive day ♥
goodnights.

4 more to go. bless me!

craving for ice cream :p
i want my superman ♥

♥ Date: Thursday, August 20, 2009 @ 7:08 PM

stuided with zann at the cc since the early morning.
manage to complete the last two chapters im left with.

pohkhim called at around 1plus. chatted with her for awhile,
then she walked over from westcoast plaza,
so we sat down and had a chat.
i believe she knows how to handle things that she is facing.
she just needs to believe in herself.
girl, way to go! :] call me if you need someone to be there.

well, wasnt very productive today i guess.
had late lunch with zann at westcoz cafe.
ordered fish and chips and grilled chicken.
so we half the portion and shared the two different main course :]
headed back to cc, realised the study room was full.
decided to study at home instead.

so now im back home,
will continue to mug till 1030.
gonna get to sleep by 11.
need to be awake at 7am tmr :[

dont know why i cried just now.
too stressed? :X
there are many things at the back of my mind.
have been trying my best to push it to the very back and concentrate on my studies instead.
one more week to go.
i believe i can do it.
it's all in the mind.

oh peeps, dont try the nutty delight at coffee bean.
just dont :S HAHAS.

♥ Date: Wednesday, August 19, 2009 @ 11:40 PM

woke up later then usual.
cause i know i will be studying alone,
own time own target.
yea, meaning - unproductive :X
hahas.

well, left home at around 10plus.
reached coffee bean at 11.
surprised to see nobody at all.
got peach iceblended, sat at the table with the 'sofa' seat.
took all my notes out and realised i forgot my jacket :[
and its always freezing cold in there.
no choice. move outside.
no aircon. luckily the weather was okay :]

only manage to clear methods of payment 2.
saw peishan at around 1pm.
she was walking home after her paper.
she sat down and we chatted alittle while.

headed home at around 2.
rested till 3.
went big book shop to get the pens and foolscap pad bi need for his revision :]
took 156 to macritchie to meet bi after his cross country training.
bi inisist on meeting up even when its just for awhile as today is our special day.
oh, no. he says everyday is special. today is just much more special.
see how silly :B

initially, he wanted me to wait for me at clementi central so that i dont have to make an extra trip there and the chances of me getting lost is pretty high :p blur sotong :X
but since im free, i slowly figured out which bus to take, where to alight and stuff.
finally, made my way to macritchie, with the help of the bus driver :]
finished up another chapter on the bus.
bi was quite worried i guess. hahas.
he called afew times to check where am i and kept reminding me to ask the bus driver for help if i dont know where to alight.

anyways, i was early.
waited for him for awhile.
then he went to change up.
after that we took bus back to clementi central.
home-ed.
have been studying since im back home.
finally done with going through all the FIT tutorials :D

will be studying at coffeebean with zann tmr ♥
gonna chiong the last lap for FIT.
and i swear i will either 'delete' or 'ctrl, alt, del and end task' all the 11 chapters of facts for FIT once i step out of the exam hall :]

yesterday night, we were both waiting for the clock to strike 12.
i know he was tired alrdy, yet he insisted on staying up.
received 2 messages from him.
and he said 'bao, happy one month anniversary' for many many times throughout the day.
i know he truely care.
i know he loves me.

hou van jou ♥ (iloveyou)

♥ Date: @ 12:00 AM

happy ONE month anniversary

bi, thanks for the messages.
i will remember all the little sweet things you did for me.
i love you ♥

♥ Date: Tuesday, August 18, 2009 @ 11:00 PM

in a pretty good mood today.
was half an hour late. shun hiang was 45mins late :p
hahas. met her up at KAP mac.
chose a corner seat, strted studying :]
manage to digest quite alot today.
5 chapters of FIT are now retained in my head. though im unsure of how long will they stay in my brain :X
4 more chaps to go and i will be ready for friday's paper ♥

oh, so coincidentally, jian hui, aston, shawn and his friend met there for revision.
so, they sat at the table beside us.
well, as usual, lots of entertainment :p
lots of laughter.

a productive and enjoyable day
love studying at my own pace :D

well well,
will be studying at coffeebean myself tmr.
manicure? or manicure not? :]
nights people ♥

we are trying to chat till his hicard needs another top up :X
hahas.

an hour more to go. - ONE ♥

tagg replies:

josh: wah ur b'dae is oso a special date to me wth~! o.o lol msn or sms if u're curious... xD
hahas. im curious! :] do drop me ur blog link if u have one and i'll link you up. ehs, tell me tell me! :p

...: copy cat.. :p + :b = :B
bi! :l + :) = :D
hahas. silly boy ♥

♥ Date: Monday, August 17, 2009 @ 10:43 PM

ahhhhhhhhh.
still thinking of where to go for mugging tmr.
zann wun be joining.
so only me and shun haing just like today :]
library rooms full, everywhere in the school seems to be so noisy..
well, gonna think of a way before i go to bed.

bi and i are planning to get a ipod nano soon.
same colour? thats what he says. cute? hahas.
he wants to 'g mask' it :]

p.s.: 2 more days - bi is going crazie over it ♥

track playing: 明明很爱你 - 品冠。
bi send me this song ytd while we were playing reversi in msn.
and he said this is what he wants to say ♥

♥ Date: @ 4:02 PM

lalalas (:
im blogging using my phone in the school library. hahas.
not really in the mood to study today. a pretty bad strt though :[

bi is back in camp after spending the whole week of holidays tgt..
he's having training now, dumbdumb didnt slp well ytd night. keep complaining tat hes slpy now.
and out of a sudden, no reply from him. guess he shuld be busying with his stuff :]
i have to say, this whole week, he has been trying his best to cheer me up, assuring me that things will be alright eventually. i know he is trying his best to be a good boyfriend and pamper me with surprises..
im glad that he respect my stand on many things and i really appreciate everything he does me.
well, nobody knows how long will things last.
seeing couples breaking off with all sorts of reasons, sometimes it makes me feels that nothing is foreva.
treasure what you have now, even if one day you were to lose tat somebody important tat once belongs to you, there shuldnt be any regrets.
i do hope we will be able to last, though im prepared that the road ahead is not gonna be a smooth sailing one.

love = trust, faithfulness & OBSSESSED
its between us.

by the way, its really too childish to say anything else.
someone who speaks without sense just end up looking like a clown :]
shameless is someone who said so many rubbish, cursing and swearing, end up saying that he is the one you truely love.
please, blog war? sorry, seriously not interested.
& you are not welcome here, please get lost.
like i say, u have no rights to judge and comment on anyone when you urself aint any better.
wake up your mind and stop thinking that u are the most faithful, most un-desperate, most experienced in love person in the world. if you didnt say u are and if u are not, u aint in any position to tell anyone off.

fyi, i didnt SNATCH him from you.
it takes two hands to clap.
he is single and im at at that time.
whats so shameless?
even if i were to let him go, what makes you so sure he wants to be back with you.
he is asking me nt to throw him back to you.
please accept the fact.
i didnt tie him up and force him not to choose u instead.
i didnt want to say all this at first, bt u force me to turn nasty.
for goodness sake, you aint my daddy, aint my mummy, shameless is not for you to say.

im expecting rusbbish again.
i wun be surprise if this childish game is gonna continue.
bt it issnt fun at all.
wake up from your pathetic life.

anyways,
just had lunch at the library cafe with shhiang :]
hotdog bun, peanutbutter wafer and almond milk tea <3
found a table after our lunch and im now blogging and staring at the lecture notes
instead of absorbing them :X
beta get back to work :]
ciao!

please ask around. Qingqing aint like that unless you force her to, leaving her with no other choice

♥ Date: Sunday, August 16, 2009 @ 8:52 PM

woots.
met bi in the morning under my block.
got him a yoghurt mummy bought ytd from my fridge :]
hahas. guess what, he got me chocolate milk ♥

took a train to city hall.
bought the movie tickets for ORPHAN.
well, we thought it was a horror movie.
bt it turn out to be just a violent one :p

anyways, bi went to play the UFOs machine again :]
caught a big MR HAPPY ♥
hahas.

went over to the food court,
shared a pot of 砂锅饭 :]

went around looking for bag packs.
culdnt find one that he likes.
so we headed to lot 1.
went into zinc, spotted one that we both find it pretty nice :]
so he bought it.

went to the arcade for awhile,
had mac flavour burst ice cream :B
took 188 home.

thanks for the sweet day :]

有时，做人要为自己积点口德。

做出那么幼稚的事，自会暴露出你那空虚的心。

说了那么多，不管是真是假，你又得到了些什么?

那些话造成的伤害，让你和那些假情假意的人没什么分别。

要批评别人，请先看看自己。

你所说的话从头到尾自相矛盾，只是你自己不知道。

我不想再浪费时间，和一个我从一开始就看错的人再有任何关系。

我有没有资格，还轮不到你决定。

到此为止。

♥ Date: Saturday, August 15, 2009 @ 11:42 PM

woke up at 8 after snoozing my phone alarm for more than 5times :]
reached school at 9am.
headed the library, realised i was the earliest.
the two xiao jie was late :p
hahas.

had bubble tea and hotdog bun for breakfast.
started studying at around 10am.
took at break at 2pm.
was msging bi while studying.

him: bao wanna eat anything special?
me: hmm, dont want. library cannot eat. hahas. must secretly. got a dumb witch kept going around to confiscate pple's food.

then he went on asking if i brought my jacket, which floor am i at and if i want my favourate chocolate milk.

me: what are you doing nw?
him: calling delivery man.. ask him bring my love to you. hahas.
me: hahas. send a handsome one PLEASE.

then he appeared outside the studying room im studying at.
bought me chocolate milk and a tube of chocolates, when he is suppose to stay at home today.
sa gua.

anyways, got 'forced' to go back to study.
he waited for me for an hour outside the room.
went off at 4plus.

went to the clementi arcade for awhile.
walked home.

YAYS.
finally went thru all the tutorials and practice questions for fmgt.
next would be AAA :B
shopping day tmr.

will be MUGGING LIKE MAD from monday onwards.
i swear :p
nights.

though i dont know how long will we last, i just want to cherish whats now
a heart could change even when they used to beat together for years, whats left to say.

♥ Date: Friday, August 14, 2009 @ 11:00 PM

ytd night (continuation of ytd's update):
met bi at 10plus under my block, went sheng shiong.
bi went to get tibits and my favouate chocolate milk :]
paid at mummy's cashier :p
then dumb dumb gave me his atm card.
shuld have spend all the money :B

today:
accompanied him for his appointment.
had to rephrase what the ang moh was saying to bi cause he wasnt paying attention :B
and there he goes 'HUH', throughout the whole conversation.
took 197 to jurong east. wanted to alight at somewhere with bus 198 so that we can head to jurong point.
bt we both fell aslp in the bus & missed the stop :X
alighted at je interchange instead, took train to jp.
bought tickets for where got ghost :]
ate at pizza hut.
bi caught another toy at the arcade - a rainbow mickey mouse :p

well, i enjoyed the movie ♥
light hearted and funny!
not very logical though :]
pretty touching at some parts.

went back to the arcade.
played the basketball throws.
collected 20plus tickets.
realised there issnt anything for us to exchange.
so, decided to keep them for next time :]

headed home at 4.
took 198 back home.
slpt throughout the journey.
have been waking up pretty early since tuesday.
will try to get more sleep tonight :]

met bi at clementi central at around 9 just now.
take away mac.
then he walked me home.
saw ken on the way.

anyways,
will be studying in the school library tmr with zann and shun hiang.
yippies. FINALLY. mugging again.
goodnights people ♥

it doesnt matter anymore.
no one can be certain of what the future has installed for us.

♥ Date: Thursday, August 13, 2009 @ 8:16 PM

it has been around a week ever since i blogg-ed.
things aint very good for the past few weeks.
theres really no point for me to say anthing else in here.
life has to go on as usual.
happy or unhappy, things will still be the same even after a night of crying.
so, i've decided not to let any other stuff affect my life, affecting my mood to prepare for my exams.
i wont be visiting blogs from now on.
till the day things gets better. till the day im stronger.
mayb, sometime after my exams.
cause i no longer wanna be affected anyone else who issnt helping things to get any better.

my laptop adapter went crazie two days ago.
got chao da smell when i on the power.
didnt dare to on it anymore, worried that it might somehow catch a fire :X
laptop die-ed while i was editting my blogskin.
hahas. living without my lappy for two days was terrible :[
went sim lim square today, got a compatible one. 50 bucks :S
really got no choice..
anyways, glad tat everything is working again! :]
chatted with gerald the moment i log on to msn.
so funny. a gay added him on msn and wanted to be friends :p
wahahas.

have been going out since tuesday and i didnt touch any module since then.
ahhhhhhhhh!
the last time i studied was on the monday, tgt with a large double chocolate frappe, my favourate hard candy and offcourse my mp3 at starbucks :] hahas.
5 papers. 5 modules, 10 chapters each. & im left with exactly 1 week.
time waits for nobody.

mummy is working afternoon shift today.
gonna fetch her home at 11pm later.
thus blogging here early :]

will be updating more often.
stay tune people! :]

i truely appreciate those who really meant well for me and those who stood by me when i felt so disappointed with things in life..
thanks a million.

tagg reply:
joyce: hey!!!!!!! dont be sad! should go out with us one dayy. :D
hey girl.. i will be fine. no worries :] yea, we shall go out soon & bully ryan chen tgt! :B
hahas. takecare. catch up with you after my exams.

♥ Date: Saturday, August 8, 2009 @ 11:07 PM

slpt till 9am in the morning.
headed to school to study :]
he msg me while i was waiting for the bus at the busstop.
so i walked back, met him around my block.

parted at 11plus. headed to school as planned.
joined zann and shun hiang in the library.
well, i especially likes the school library during the weekends.
less people, less noise :]

manage to complete two chapters of FIT, methods of payment 1 and 2.
pretty efficient for today, even though i wasnt in a very good mood :]

library closes at 5pm.
so i went home while the two girls stayed at some corner to finish their videos.

today,
i walked home very very slowly.
listening to my mp3, trying to figure things out.
i dont knw whats exactly the feeling inside.
i feel like crying, but theres no tears.
at times i felt really unhappy.
bt the next moment, im able to study - which shows that im nt really that upset.
i asked myself. what do i really want.
i culdnt figure it out as well.

is it because i clearly knw that there is not gonna be any solution to all the problems im facing, thats why im tired of crying and thinking about it like the way i used to when things just happen at the beginning.

or is it like what girl said，其实我并不那么爱他，只是不服气为什么事情会变成这样。

i guess its really time for me to look back,
and decide if this is all i wanted right from the beginning.
i no longer want to drag things on.

yes, i brought it all upon myself.
i chose it to be this way.
but i have never regretted the decision i made from the very beginning.

♥ Date: Friday, August 7, 2009 @ 11:05 PM

guys, everything will be fine.
dont worry about me.
im still strong enough to handle things.
at times, crying is one of the many ways to let out my emotions.

a longer update will be up soon :]
im alright, mugging pretty much.
i believe things will be OKAY.
i will handle this like an adult.

ryan, thanks for ur shoulder that day.
my best buddy :]

♥ Date: Wednesday, August 5, 2009 @ 9:15 PM

im really very disappointed with what happened this few days.
sometimes, its really this kind of situation that allows one to see the true colours of the people around you.
it just makes me wonder, why could people just change overnight.
or mayb they are like that all along. its just the ugly side that i havent seen.
well, its never to late to see the other side of someone who used to show so much concern for you, but ended up stabbing you from the back.
i have nothing else to say.

im not afraid if you want to say whateva its true. but please, speak with ur conscious clear.
you have no rights and definitely not in the position to say things that u DO NOT KNOW.
and for goodness sake, whateva u said could be taken as an insult.
im sure she didnt ask you anything abt that.
your efforts to mind your words would be greatly appreciated.
dont add salt to one's wound.
fyi, my dad has NO PROBLEM.
thanks so much for the mess created.

no names are mention above.
please, dont take it as a personal attack unnecessarily.
you know who you are.
no questions will be entertained.

♥ Date: Sunday, August 2, 2009 @ 9:31 PM

slpt till 8plus 9 in the morning.

got changed, suppose to meet bi under my block at 10.
called him while i was preparing.
he told me he's buying big breakfast for me at clementi central.
caused i said i wanted it yesterday.
how sweet? :]

yea, superman.
he tot he is one :p

met him under my block at 10.
i ate and he LOOKED.
dumbdumb never buy for himself.
or mayb the breakfast is in his tummy alrdy.
well, i couldnt tell :p

took bus to jurong east library.
bi started writing his notes.
didnt study much. all i did was drawing smiley faces all over his note book :p
then he taught me how to drew a 'face' that i have never seen before.
bi, ur face very ugly lehs :p

well, my laptop died even before bi could use it.

left at 1plus, took 198 to jurong point.
walked around, bi caught a stitch at the arcade :]
had late lunch at long john.
then home.

谢谢你的爱心早餐 ♥

下次记得买两份 :]

that moment, brought us closer