'along the way, i've learnt that you can't let anyone in too far and you can't trust endlessly. The biggest mistake you make is to care or love someone more than yourself. beacuse then you are just setting youself up for disappointment. boundaries are necessary so that you can protect yourself, because once you're broken, you'll never be fully fixed.' -eletheowl.
the above describes it all.
im awaken from the dream that once belongs to us.
188 days ago,
when i first decided to let you into my heart,
i did it without knowing the consequences.
i never thought i'll end up losing myself,
feeling all the heartaches over again.
at that very moment,
i thought, you're everything i ever wanted.
i thought, i'll be the happiest girl like you promised.
i thought, i've found somebody to lean on.
i don't want to forget the days you,
appeared outside my house just to cheer me up when i'm upset,
told me you'll be the one giving me the sense of security i needed,
look into my eyes and tell me you'll prove your love for me,
say you'll wait for the day when i trust you totally, even if its takes forever,
hide behind the pillar and surprised me with a hug from the back,
rushed back from camp just to see for a mins,
did silly little things just for me,
if everything's gonna be a history.
i missed the days when it's only us.
this is not me.
you have no idea how much everything impacts my heart.
