didnt update ytd as i really wasnt in the mood to do anything.
bi wasnt in a very good mood as well.
ytd was the first time he flared quite abit.
it just happened too sudden.
dont know how to cheer him up.
at that point, i realised how tough it is to hong somebody.
needless to say the amount of effort needed to do that.
& yet, he is the one who have been doing the job of cheering me up whenever my mood swings for no reason.
we hung the phone after some unpleasant arguement.
in less then 5mins, bi called again.
this is what he said:
girl,
i want to tell you this.
1. 你是我的公主, 是让我疼让我哄的。你不会哄我，我明白。bi 不怪你.
2. 我真的很爱你, 我也只爱你一个。越爱你就越怕伤害你。我宁愿你伤害我，我都不会去伤害你。
3. 我不准你以后再叫我找别的女朋友，不可以再讲这些垃圾话。
i know, i will never regret the decision made 2months and 6days ago.
today:
daddy have a medical appointment in the morning, so he didnt go for work.
he kept waking me up, asking me when am i gonna change up and get ready for work.
he's worried that i'll be late :B
with all the 'naggings', i woke up at 715 and left home at 8am.
so early that i could even buy myself breakfast at the canteen at my work place before reporting for work.
so yea, bee hoon + fish cake + sunny side up & hot milo :]
chatted with jason and nathan during lunch.
talked about signing on.
didnt knw jason was once a army regular for 5years :]
well, many laughters inbetween offcourse.
crapping? or mayb i should call it gossiping :p
though im the youngest, bt we seems to 'click' quite well :B
lunch its a time to chat about anything :]
back to the office after lunch,
almost everyone went for meetings and stuff.
whole office super quiet.
received bi's msg telling me that he's gonna BOOK OUT at 430 :D
i was so OMG! :]
so sudden.
i tot i could only see him again on the 6 oct.
he took his friends bike back to clementi.
i went off at 5 instead of 530.
i was still in the bus when he reached.
met him at big book shop.
had fries at mac & his favourate toast with cold butter at ah hock kaya roti ♥
bought the new macflurry, ate on the way :]
bi carried me and tried throwing me into the dusbin on the way back to his place :[
big bully! :p hahas.
we were just playing around ♥
went to his place for him to place his stuff and get change.
went sheng shiong to get tibits for him to bring back to camp.
bi walked me home slowly after that.
he piggy back me for alittle while :]
i kept saying - bi, can dont go back camp mah?
i guess i repeated myself for many many times though i knw its impossible.
he didnt wants to go back too, bt, what to do..
i cried, bt he wipe away my tears.
i know he cant do much.
i just need a shoulder.
anyways, reached home at 8plus.
i tried so hard to hold back my tears when i turn my back after saying goodbye.
bi went home to take a nap before his daddy drive him back to camp.
he needa report back before 11pm.
another 10 more days before we are able to meet again.
okay. i should nt think of it any further before i go crazie again.
i know im stronger as day goes by. & i want to be, i have to be.
from today on, im gonna try blogging about things in my life instead of counting the days, reminding myself of the terrible feeling of missing him :]
bi, bao will try my best to 'stay happy, smile more and everything will be fine'.
i'll remember what you said.
ganbateh to me,
ganbateh to my dear
& ganbateh to us ♥
i love you ♥
you and your silly ideas of asking me to be your legal lao po :B
i will remember you once said that no matter what happens, i'll be the most important one in your heart.
special thanks to terence, gerald & ken who tried cheering me up ever since i became
thanks guys.
