slpt till 9am in the morning.
headed to school to study :]
he msg me while i was waiting for the bus at the busstop.
so i walked back, met him around my block.
parted at 11plus. headed to school as planned.
joined zann and shun hiang in the library.
well, i especially likes the school library during the weekends.
less people, less noise :]
manage to complete two chapters of FIT, methods of payment 1 and 2.
pretty efficient for today, even though i wasnt in a very good mood :]
library closes at 5pm.
so i went home while the two girls stayed at some corner to finish their videos.
today,
i walked home very very slowly.
listening to my mp3, trying to figure things out.
i dont knw whats exactly the feeling inside.
i feel like crying, but theres no tears.
at times i felt really unhappy.
bt the next moment, im able to study - which shows that im nt really that upset.
i asked myself. what do i really want.
i culdnt figure it out as well.
is it because i clearly knw that there is not gonna be any solution to all the problems im facing, thats why im tired of crying and thinking about it like the way i used to when things just happen at the beginning.
or is it like what girl said，其实我并不那么爱他，只是不服气为什么事情会变成这样。
i guess its really time for me to look back,
and decide if this is all i wanted right from the beginning.
i no longer want to drag things on.
yes, i brought it all upon myself.
i chose it to be this way.
but i have never regretted the decision i made from the very beginning.
