wasnt feeling very well today. alittle feverish.
i tot it was H1N1 looking for me :X
TOUCHWOOD!
anyways, i have tons of things waiting for me to complete.
so worried about my gpa this semester. i really need it to pull up my average.
feeling a little stressed. cant really help it.
i believe, its part of learning and placing some expectations on myself.
met jack at around 1plus after lessons.
went jurong point for awhile.
was feeling rather weak.
so he sent me home pretty early.
reached home at around 4.
there issnt anyone at home and the lights wasnt on.
sat down alone and many things went thru my head once again.
i could say, this is one of the worst down period i ever had.
yes, many would say, we are too young to talk abt love and relationships.
bt, once you fell into it. it would be a totally different thing.
it has been almost 3weeks since my heart feels so heavy.
sometimes, i even thought of drinking to numb the feelings.
i really dont know what is it that i really want.
i just feel very terrible inside.
boy, im sorry for everything that has happened.
i didnt want it this way too.
it's my fault.
i shouldnt have drag you into this, shouldnt have gave you any hope.
you are really a nice guy and you treated my very well.
just like what you said, mayb its happened at the wrong time.
im really sorry.
