finally gotten all my prelim results.. didnt do very well. bt i improve on all the subjects(: gotten an L1R4 of 20 and L1R5 of 24. MI was all in my mind. lols. kant even get into the poly course i wan wit tis stupid results): definitely i nid to continue to mugg till the very last minute:X so stress up nwadaes. got to cope wit all the tys questions from teachers and revision dat needs to be completed. practicals are coming in 18days. im worried. so mani tings are in my mind. IM GOING MAD SOON.
oh yah. bought a new fone. w580i(; finally im able to get rid of tat mute fone((: im gonna treasure the new one. hopefully:p
tings are getting out of my control. out of my ability to handle. just feel like avoiding it. neither do i feel like toking or tinking about it. my heart hurt. deep inside. bt who reallie understand. im confused. i just wan to be alone. must i reallie choose btw sumone i love and a friend whom i do treasure alot? i dun see the need. bt i feel lyk im forced to. i dun wanna choose. neither do i wan to give up on any of them. no one have the rite to control who i talk to, who i sms wit and who im closed to. even u. so wad if im attached. i have got my choice and my freedom. wad i expect is just u to respect me and even my frens. trust me or leave it. I DUN BELONG TOTALLY TO U. U ARE JUST SCARING ME AWAY. its just so pressurising talking to u. i believe until now u still tink dat u are rite in doing sumting behind my back witout telling me. u will never understand how i feel at that point of time. never. gals, never get a guys who is so possessive. never get a guy who doesnt respect ur freedom and ur frens. never get a guy who is insensitive to ur feelings and do tings witout puting themselves into ur shoes. never get a guy who choose to do other tings which he tinks is more impt than accompanying you.
is reallie heartbreaking to find out the one u love being dat wae. once u step into it. there is no other wae bt to struggle thru it.
IM STRUGGLING.
